We're Moving Where?!

Holy crap we're moving to Hawaii, and I'm finally excited about it! We're not leaving for a while yet but the planning has already begun. There are so many things to worry about with Jack, with packing regulations, shipping out our car, finding a home (on or off base?), and what happens with my work/school future. Luckily for me, I found there's a MA school in Honolulu so I'll be all set for education! Next things to work on is making sure my kitty boy is up to date with vaccinations so he doesn't have to face the chance of quarantine. Thankfully, we still have over a year to figure every thing out. Yup, we're not due there until February of 2014. 

Operation: Make a Baby is currently up in the air for now. I had a follow up appointment on Friday and was told in no less words, "There's nothing more we can do for you, here's a card for the Seattle Infertility Clinic." Talk about compassion. Or not. I held my composure as I walked through the waiting room full of expectant mothers, I got down the elevator and out to the car, and then it all broke out. I cried for what felt like hours. My eyes hurt, my heart hurt. Why am I broken? Why can't this be as easy for us as it is for others? What did I do so wrong to deserve this? 

But, I pulled myself together, moved on with my day and called another doctors office once I could stomach it. This one simple phone call, talking with only a receptionist, was enough to give me the tiniest glimpse of hope. I can do this, I can keep my head together for two weeks until this next appointment, and I will not give up so easily. When you want something in life, no matter what it is, you don't give up. You give everything you have for it and it's exactly what I'm going to do.

As for day to day life, there's nothing much going on with the two of us. Toby leaves for the field in a few days and will be gone for no less than two weeks, weather permitting. I got through it last year without internet, cable, a job or school. This time I have three of four so it should be a breeze! Afterwards will be Thanksgiving and I can't wait to cook up a feast! We should be hosting a few of his friends who also won't be visiting family, and that makes it all the better. I love the friends we've made so far and can't wait to make more as we progress through the army life.